What is the equation you're trying to solve? What does your life add up to? How do you divide your story?
We are the sum of our choices, not the sum of our circumstances.
Repeat it. Understand it. Believe it.
You are not what happened to you. Focus on the present. You deserve what you tolerate. Every choice you make is for your present self. Your future self is based on your present self. Happiness is not a destination. It's a perspective. Happiness is a perspective you can CHOOSE. You simply have to appreciate your life for what it offers now. That's why it's called the present. Want different? Choose differently.
What choices are you making?